Thursday, July 16, 2009

I hate cancer

So I've been cancer free now for almost 2 years, I'm coming up on my 2nd anniversary which is a big date. It's called being NED, no evidence of disease and the gals like to say they are dating Ned...
I'm really really grateful that I seem to be beating it since I was stage III and it seemed my docs didn't have a great outlook on my prognosis. I try to live each day to the fullest, I finally got over my issues with relationships and found a man who loves me and who I love in return. I'm working on myself, my relationships, my life and I'm, for the most part, very happy
My friend C who's the same age as me was diagnosed with cancer (a different kind) about 2 1/2 years ago. She didn't quite make 2 years before it came back. She recently (like a week ago) finished chemo for the second time. Today she found out from a PET scan that the tumor that had shrunk due to chemo has now grown and it has spread to her bowl and she has activity in her thigh. She was stage IV when diagnosed, but still, this SUCKS SO MUCH ASS. She has kids and a husband and is fighting so hard and it's back without her even getting a break. I hate, hate, hate cancer and what it does to us, what it tries to take from us. I know she'll keep fighting and I'll be praying every day that she wins this fight, but my heart HURTS for her and her family and there's absolutely nothing I can do.

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Omg, I'm such a loser!

I know, I know, it's been almost a month since I posted, what's wrong with me?! That's rhetorical, btw ;)
Ok, let's see, what's been the haps?
Well, the garden is doing SO well, it's very exciting, I'll try to take more pics and post them. We've already had tomatoes off both plants and all of the other plants have flowers and should hopefully soon have fruit and veggies. Even plants that didn't show in the first pics are coming up nicely, some type of beans (can't remember exactly what I planted). Flowers are doing well too, I like gardening, it's relaxing to get your hands dirty and see something come of it.
In other news, the new boob is doing just fine! I saw my plastic surgeon (or PS) and he was very happy with everything. He wanted to give me a new nipple and make the left side (original boob) look more like the new one, but I opted to be left alone for now. Enough slicing and dicing, thank you very much. Plus, I think it looks good and so does BF, that's all that matters. In clothes you can't even tell. There is one thing though, because the skin used for it was taken from my "lower" stomach, I have a bit of my happy trail now on my chest, so I have to shave it. Ha, what a crazy world!
All is good with the BF as well, we still have never even had a fight and our anniversary is this month. Of course I don't remember the actual date, but I already got him a gift and a card, I'll just give it to him when he gives me mine ;) I'm such a guy sometimes! On the bad side of things, he's still not working, it's been over 2 months and I'm starting to get a little stressed. So please keep your fingers crossed that he gets a job soon...
My mom is still doing ok, her breathing has not been good, I know why it's not good but she acts like she doesn't which is frustrating. I mean, she smoked for over 50 years and even once she was put on oxygen she kept smoking until very recently. A few years ago her doctor told her that her lungs were at approx. 10% of capacity but she kept smoking. That's why she can't breath and I think she's just at the point where the meds can't really do much good anymore. It sucks, but it's a result of her choices. So we go visit once a month, going up this weekend, and hopefully she'll last a while longer, I just don't know.
That's things with me, howzabout you?