Thursday, March 19, 2009

When old boyfriend's happen to good people

So I was checking my email the other day and I saw there was an email from the guy I was dating right before BF. I have to say, when I saw his name in my inbox I got that weird feeling in my stomach. All I could think was "what on earth is he emailing me for?". We hadn't talked since he broke things off, and I really couldn't think why he'd initiate contact. So I open the email and see that he is apologizing for how he handled things. He said he's sorry for how things ended, that he freaked out when I met his daughter and thought things had progressed farther than he felt comfortable with. He now realizes that any awkwardness was all in his head and both the daughter and I were fine. He said I deserved better; that I'm beautiful, smart and all together awesome. He hoped I could forgive him and that either way he wishes me only the best. So that's all well and good, it put me in a tiny bit of turmoil; not because I'd for a second consider leaving BF to go back to him, and he didn't actually ask me to anyway. But I did have fairly strong feelings for him and it was weird hearing from him out of the blue. I ended up emailing him back and saying that I also wish things had gone differently, that I thought we got along really well and could have had something long term, but I don't hold any grudges or ill will towards him. Haven't heard anything since which is fine by me...
So, surgery is next Tuesday. This is an approx. 7 hour surgery, I had labs done last week, did a phone screening with the anesthesia nurse today to make sure I'm healthy enough and I think I'm about ready to go. I have to do some cleaning around the house and laundry before so it doesn't drive me crazy while I'm recouping. My ex-MIL is coming to stay with me for a week so I'm not home alone during the day and I want the place to look decent when she gets there. And we are having a little house warming party on Saturday as a sort of last hurrah since I won't be up for much partying for quite a while.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

What's up doc?

So as you all know, I've been to a couple of plastic surgeon's about breast reconstruction. A few weeks ago I saw a surgeon at UCLA medical center who does the type of surgery I want to have done. He told me what he'd do (DIEP Flap recon) and how long I'd be in the hospital (3-4 days) and recovery time (out of work 4-6 weeks). I've decided to go ahead and do the surgery. This doctor apparently has one of the best records for this type of surgery in the world, UCLA is a world renowned place to have anything done and I feel comfortable with the doc and his staff. This link: http://breastcancer.about.com/od/lifeduringtreatment/tp/diep_kind.htm, will give you a better idea as to the surgery I'll be having done. My date is set for Tuesday, March 24 so it's coming up quickly. I will check in with y'all as soon as I am able, hopefully by that weekend some time. My ex-MIL is going to come stay with us from the Sunday after until the following weekend because the BF has to work and I don't want to be home alone the first week. Keep your fingers crossed and send out good thoughts that it goes well and the cats don't jump on me as soon as I get home...