Sup

I have nothing planned for this weekend, my friend wants to go to this famous thrift store in downtown on Sunday maybe and really that’s it. She also invited me to go out after work, I’ll probably meet up with them for happy hour in Pasadena but I’m not going out to Hollywood with them, they are going to Miss Kitty's again and I'm not in the mood, I’d just rather go home and veg out in front of a movie or something or maybe even go to the gym late, I’m tired this week and grumpy, not sure why besides being annoyed at work, my coworker has been in Vegas all week and I've had to cover a lot of her stuff plus my own plus it seems like my boss give me more crud every day that just adds on to the madness, maybe I’m PMSing, although I usually don’t, but I started back on the pill to control my crazy periods so maybe it’s affecting me since I’m not used to it yet. I did Pilates last night, it kicks your butt, OMG, my muscles were shaking uncontrollably, it’s way more intense than yoga and then I jogged on the treadmill, I never jog, only walk really fast, I always kind of think there's no reason to run unless something is chasing you plus it usually makes me out of breath really quickly but last night I didn't get out of breath at all, it was easy, weird. Anyway, I hope everyone has a fabulous 4th of July weekend, peace out.

Everything's eventual

I've been doing a lot of thinking about what I want to do with my life, what I want to be when I grow up, even who I want to be when I grow up and the conclusion I've come to is... I still don't know. Is that sad, bad, normal, a problem? I don't know, it just seems like there are so many things I'm interested in that I can't quite pick one so I ended up in the banking profession as a sort of accident rather than really by choice, it's not hard work, the hours are good, my coworkers are, for the most part, pleasant and easy to get along with, oh yeah, there are annoyances of course, I'm rather stressed at the moment and sometimes people seem so stupid you wonder how they made it out of childhood, they should have been killed at some point just to prove Darwin correct but I mean, that's in all professions I think. But I really want a job/profession/whatever that makes me want to go to work in the morning or doesn't require me to be up early in the mornings, where I feel I'm making a difference, at least to my own mental/emotional/spiritual wellbeing yet pays enough to live comfortably, not be rich because I really don't care about that, but have enough money to have a nice place, nice shoes and lots of books and be able to travel, I don't think that's too much to ask for. I just feel so antsy all the time like I s/b doing something specific with my life, like what's it all for, am I just wasting time till I die, most days seem the same and time is passing SO FAST, I'll be 40 in two years and what have I really accomplished, will I be remembered for anything other than my sarcastic comments? I want someone/thing to point me in the right direction and tell me "this is what you s/b doing, go do it".

My weekend

I had the most boring weekend and it was wonderful. I did go out Friday after work for sushi and a movie, saw Nacho Libre, ok, stupid as hell but I laughed so much my stomach and cheeks (not those ones, you perverts!) hurt. Jack Black is just funny to me. We were supposed to go to a club after in NoHo but we were too tired, so I went home. Saturday I got up, ate a bowl of cereal and went into Glendale to shop. And I was there for hours, I bought two camis at Express (big sale), a top at Macy's on clearance (light blue silk sleeveless), a cream skirt I am wearing today at White House, Black Market (too much but I had a gift card from my girlfriend), a purse at Wilson's Leather, it's off-white with black stitching and is SO cute, even my gay friend Alan said so, and by this time I realized I had spent more money than I intended, altho I did not buy the pair of cute, really high sandals I wanted to at Macy's, so I went to Target and focused and only bought TP, paper towels and Draino-O (only $6 at Target is a miracle for me, truly), then went to the grocery store, then home and watched a movie that night, In Good Company, pretty good, and that was my whole Saturday. Sunday took movies back, went to the gym for two hours, home to shower, went to the hardware store to buy white fly spray for my outdoors plants, to another grocery store, then spent the rest of the day reading and watching bad tv. I am almost done reading Nicholas Sparks book True Believer, it's not bad for a summer read.
today at work I am having to be an accountant which is making my brain hurt but I am almost done which is a relief.

Fun in Santa Barbara

This is a recent pic taken in Santa Barbara on a weekend roadtrip with my friend Jen. I love SB, the weather is the best, it's pretty, the drive is easy, but I can't possibly live there because it's outrageously expensive. The bars make pretty damn strong drinks tho...














We had a good time :)

Normal?

do you think it's normal to keep a 9mm loaded with hollow points under your pillow? is it a little psychotic or if one lives in a city like LA is it acceptable? just wondering...

Birthday gifts

I did pretty well this year with the birthday gifts, at work I got a giftcard to Best Buy for $140, my uncle and grandma gave me $50 cash, I used both of those plus a little of my own money to buy a digital camera finally. My mom gave me silver and markasite earrings, a bracelet and a wrap to wear to fancy affairs. My sister gave me a DVD, one friend sent me a gift card to White House/Black Market for $50, another gave me a $30 giftcard to Wilson's Leather because she saw me looking at purses there and another gave me lotion and a book and my friend Michelle gave me linen spray from Bath and Bodyworks. I am having lunch with my friend Karla this weekend and I get a gift from her, my birthday really wasn't for a day or even a week but is stretching over the whole month practically. And Kath, the sweetie, sent me a card in the mail :) I have such nice friends, have to remember that when I'm being a brat and acting pouty about getting older or the state of the economy or whatever else I am bitching about from one moment to the next. My family isn't too shabby either, even if they are crazy they still love me, my aunt and uncle in Oregon are going to do the work of clearing my acre lot there since I can't make it up to do it, they are in their 50s and still willing to do manual labor for me, how nice is that? My aunt said if I decide to sell my land I will make a good profit on it, that was nice to hear. And next weekend is my annual dinner at work, get to get all dressed up and have dinner at the Long Beach aquarium, I'm taking my friend Jen with me and we are going out afterwards, par-tay!

Random crap

what I've been reading lately: How to Meet Cute Boys, my friend Jen loaned it to me, it was fluffy but cute. Am also reading a book about figuring out what to do with ones life, maybe I can get some insight. Still reading The Sex Lives of Cannibals and I bought the Kite Runner, haven't started it yet.
what I've watched: An Unfinished Life, I really liked it even though it had J-Lo in it, she was understated for once and with Robert Redford and Morgan Freeman (LOVE HIM!), it told a really nice, quiet story about people, their lives and how we get so bogged down in the past we stop living in the present or seeing hope in the future. Highly recommend. I also have the Upside of Anger at home, haven't watched it yet.
nothing on tv, that's actually good, gives me more time to read and watch movies I have been wanting to see. what have y'all been reading/watching that you'd recommend?

Today in history

Yes, today, June 5, 1968 Robert F Kennedy was assasinated but on that same exact day another person was born, me. Okay, I'm sure lots of other people were born that day, but anyway, I share an aniversary with RFK.
I have been celebrating/mourning all weekend, last Friday at work we did the cake, card, gift thing with my coworker Debra whose birthday is June 4th, we got her a gift card to Ann Taylor and I got one for $140 to Best Buy, I'm going to get a digital camera I think. Then we went for drinks later, just the four HR ladies, it was also for Debra's last day in our dept since she's going to the call center to be a supervisor. We already miss her...
Saturday my friends threw me a party at Moose's in Pasadena, that was fun, got drunk, stayed out till 2, and then yesterday I got up at 10, went to the gym, went by Starbucks to get iced tea and decided to get iced tea for the people that work at my gym because it was like 100 degrees so I took that back to them, they were really happy, then went and picked up two movies, An Unfinished Life with Robert Redford, Morgan Freeman and Jennifer Lopez, and in spite of J-Lo being in it, it was really good and she was good too. I also got The Upside of Anger but haven't gotten around to watching it yet. Besides coloring my hair, that's all I did yesterday, which was nice. Today I got a call from my mom and my sister and tomorrow my boss is taking me out for lunch. This weekend I'm driving to Santa Maria, taking off early Friday to go up and coming back late Saturday, I don't work all weekend, yay.
Unfortunately that's all that's going on, nothing really on the romantic front but whatever, it will pick up eventually, it always does. In the meantime I have more time for the gym and my friends :)

My long weekend

Last weekend was a long weekend anyway, since the CU was closed on Monday but I took an additional two days off, five days total, I really need a longer vacation but I don't have the time accrued yet so this was what I could do for now. It was nice though, I didn't do a lot, so many times I pack tons of stuff into a vacation and then don't get to relax. Saturday I'm not even sure what I did, I had to get an oil change which I did and while waiting had breakfast with a friend, then walked to the mall and did some shopping, didn't buy anything but had some gelato, yummy. Later I did...? I think I went to the gym and then I stayed home and did nothing. Sunday got up fairly early and picked up my friend Jen and drove into Ventura, we stopped at a roadside stand on the 126 to buy some locally grown stuff, they had nuts, fruit, honey, olives, etc, I got olives and honey, Jen got olives, turkey jerky and some beeswax/honey lotion stuff. Then when we got to Ventura we found a hotel and reserved a room but it was too early to check in so we went downtown and walked around, shopped, I bought some soaps at this cute little shop, earrings, nail polish, lipgloss and a pretty Indian top (turquoise w/beads and sequins on it, it goes over another top and only has a loop at the waist to secure it), really cute, all that was like $20, score, Jen bought shoes there and a top I think, she spent more at every store we went to. Also went to a thrift store and I bought two books for $1.48, Catcher in the Rye because I didn't own it already and some other fluffy, girly beach book. Then we ate lunch at some healthy place, not healthy on purpose but when we looked at the menu we realized it was, then we went and checked in at the hotel, she took a shower, then I took one and did out hair and make up and then drove into Santa Barbara to party, we ate at Rusty's Pizza, if you go to SB make sure to have pizza, there are two Rusty's in town, we ate at the one right on the beach by the pier, so good. Then we proceeded to State Street, and went to I think 4 or 5 bars/clubs, not sure exactly, they were making the drinks SO strong, I had five all night which I know is a lot for some people but not for me but I was DRUNK, and Jen had 6 so she was worse. And there were no cute guys hitting on us, she got hit on by one guy when I was in the bathroom at one place, but let's just say no to that one, but then a guy complimented me on my top (the Indian one, told ya it was cute) at another bar, so we talked to him for a bit, he's an artist in Montecito, he gave me his card, I gave him mine, we took some pictures with him, he was a good sport, but then his lame friends made him leave, and that was the last cute boy we talked to. but I'm going to email him and see if he responds, if not, oh well. Monday morning woke up not feeling great, no wonder, but we went to the beach and layed out for an hour or so then headed back into LA, stopped at another roadside stand and bought some fruit, tomatoes, nuts to take back, dropped Jen off, went home and did nothing the rest of the day. Tuesday i went looking for apartments in Glendale but OMG, I am so not paying $1000 a month for a one bedroom, so I guess I'm not living there since that was the median price. That was depressing, but I also went to the mall to get a gift card at Ann Taylor for a friend and bought a pair of Steve Madden wedges for $40 on sale, they are SO CUTE, I can't stand it, wore them yesterday and everyone was dying, they are really high and I'll probably break my ankle at some point but I don't care. I went to lunch with Jen and her coworkers yesterday, didn't have to pay since they expensed it, we had Creole food, Jen's from Louisianna originally, she said it was good but not really authentic but I enjoyed it anyway, also went to the gym both Tuesday and Wednesday, then last night I went and met a guy for coffee in Burbank and bought another book at a discount place, Terry Prachett, 1st edition hardback for $5, score again.
Today am back at work, have to work tonight also, I so didn't want to come in, why can't I win the lotto and not have to work anymore? I am wearing my new earrings at least, that makes me feel better. Anyway, the weekend is almost here and my birthday party is Saturday in Pasadena and we celebrate both my coworker Debra's and my birthday tomorrow here at work with cake and presents, I love gifts, and I also had three books delivered from Amazon this morning here so that was like an early b-day gift too, even though I paid for them...