Happy New Years everyone!

I hope everyone is doing something fun for New Years, whatever that might be. I am going to a party with the BF at his friend's house. It s/b interesting to meet more of his friends and see what they are like in a party situation. Since the BF doesn't drink at all, I can have a couple and not have to worry about driving, woo hoo! Not going to get toasted though, especially the first time I meet his peeps. Then tomorrow we are supposed to go into Little Tokyo with his friend Margaret (the almost roommate) and her on-again/off-again boyfriend. He wasn't sure I'd want to go since we are hanging out with his friends tonight and then have another party w/different friends Friday night, but I told him it was fine if he wanted to go. That s/b an interesting day :-/
Oh, and last night I'm pretty sure he said something about living together which I didn't really respond to. He was saying something about the party tonight and how we'd stay till midnight then probably go back to "our" place. And then he said, "oh, you know, one of our places. Although my place could be your place" or something like that. I wasn't sure exactly how he meant it so I just kind of said yeah or something equally appropriate and witty. Do you think that's what he meant?

Christmas recap

Well, Christmas was good, but not as good as Fesitvus. The drive up the coast on Wednesday to Santa Maria was very nice though, some rain but not much and really no traffic to speak of. I did have a little fun with my ex husband and that's always good. I went by his parents house to visit and exchange gifts with my ex-MIL and he was there with his new little sancha and the kids. So Heidi introduces me as her friend to "Annie" and she doesn't even really look at me, just continues playing with the kids. But what can you expect, she's 20 for cripes sake. Anyway, I'm making little snide comments to my ex, and at one point I mention that it's ironic that my new boyfriend has the exact same name as my ex. But I don't call him my ex, I just say "hey my new BF has the same name as you, how ironic, huh?" and he's like, "yeah, very" but he's giving me a look which I completely ignore. The "Annie" goes upstairs for a while with the kids and Heidi says, "Ewan really likes Annie (Ewan is around 20 months old)" and I say, oh, that's nice, but of course I'm thinking of something sarcastic and my ex is looking at me and I'm smirking and I say "I was going to say something sarcastic but restrained myself" and he's like "yeah, right" so I say "well, they are almost the same age, no wonder he likes playing with her" and Heidi is cracking up, the ex is glaring at me, I'm laughing and I say "plus, they are like the same height, kids love that". Ha, he's such an idiot. So then "Annie" goes to the store with my exes sister in law and he tells his mom and I it's cuz she figured out who I was and is uncomfortable. And Heidi tells him, how is that our fault, you knew Jean was going to be here and I introduced her as my friend, if she figured it out that's not our fault. And he's like, I know, but it's still uncomfortable for her. So I ask him, does she know you have a first ex wife? And he says yes, he's told her about me, about me having cancer and becoming good friends with his mom again, blah blah, and I say, well then if she knows it shouldn't be a problem, right? And he's just being a moron, saying but it's awkward, whatever. So she comes back and he goes upstairs with her and the kids and my ex-MIL & FIL and I are laughing and making fun of him, it was great. So I found out later, he didn't exactly tell her about me, he told her I was "an ex" as in girlfriend but when she went to the store with the sister in law, she grilled her and found out I was actually wife #1 and that he left me for wife #2 who he then left for... Annie. So she says, "that sounds like a pattern" and the SIL says, "no shit". So I guess they were fighting the rest of the time, gotta love the holidays! I also got my hair done and went to my girlfriend's moms house Christmas night, had some wine and dessert, it was very nice. Then I came home yesterday and went to dinner and a movie with the BF, he stayed over and we are going out again tonight, or staying in, whichever sounds better :) It's been a very eventful holiday season so far and I still have New Years!

It's a Festivus miracle!

I love Festivus, it's my new fave holiday! We ate meatloaf, mac n cheese & salad, watched two episodes of season 2 of Heroes, ate chocolate fudge cake and then exchanged gifts. I gave him the cards I had my ex-brother in law make for him, a pair of jeans I bought at the jean sale I went to and a stocking with some Star Wars characters in it. I think he really liked the cards, they were the main gift, so I hope so. He gave me some gold and diamond earrings with the claddagh symbol which stands for loyalty, friendship and love. And then I put on this cute little Santa outfit I bought at Macy's; it is red with white feathers and there's not much to it, he loved it ;) Well actually, he told me he liked it but he loved me. He loves me!! I love him too, how awesome is that? I haven't been in love for over a decade, it's such a great feeling to have someone who loves me and who I love in return. I am a very lucky girl.

Festivus for the rest of us!

I am celebrating Festivus (or Christmas, whatever) with my guy tomorrow night. We are also going to lunch, I'm going to pick him up since I'm off all week and then I'm going to his place when he gets home from work. In addition to the Spiderman & Green Lantern cards I got for him I got him a stocking with Star Wars Christmas characters (Darth in a Santa hat is awesome!) and a pair of jeans at the jean sale I went to. I have no idea what he got me, it s/b interesting :) I also found a cute little holiday nighty at Macy's, red with white feathers, I'll be wearing it but really it's for him, right? This is the first Christmas I've had a significant other in 10 years, can you believe it? I'm all excited, and I really can't wait for New Years, we have a couple of parties to decide between but I don't really care where we go, I'm just happy to have someone I like this much to spend the holidays with. Merry merry Christmas everyone!!

Holiday plans

I have a very busy week and a half coming up! I am taking off work starting this Friday and I don't return until Monday, Dec. 29. Friday I am driving to AZ to visit my friend in Queen Creek for a couple of days. I'll leave there Sunday around noon and hopefully be back in So Cal around 6 pm. Then Wednesday I am leaving again for Santa Maria to visit my family and friends for actual Christmas. I know I am going by my ex-MIL's house Xmas eve to visit and we are hoping my ex will be there with his new sancha so we can freak him out. His mom cracks me up :) I am also going out that night with my friend Natalie who does my hair, probably just to get a drink. Christmas will be spent at my mom's and then the day after Christmas I am getting my hair done and probably having lunch with another friend. Then I'm heading home that evening sometime, hopefully not too late. I'm not sure when I'm celebrating Christmas with the BF, probably either Monday or Tuesday before Xmas or the weekend after. I already got his gift but I know he hasn't done his shopping, he said he's doing it this weekend since I'm out of town anyway. Then New Year's is right around the corner, I'm sure there will some party to go to. So what are y'alls plans for Christmas and New Years? :)

What is love, baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me, no more...

That song was on VH1 today for a list of one hit wonders, and of course I always have to do the head bob thing from SNL when I hear it. But it also makes me wonder, is it love? I was watching VH1 at the BF's house because I stayed over and I will probably go over this evening sometime as well. We are spending 4-5 nights with each other every week, my friend Jen says she knows we are going to end up living together. But here's my conumdrum (well, one of them anyway); I haven't been at this point in a relationship in a LONG TIME and honestly, I'm not sure I know what it feels like to be in love, fall in love, love a man anymore. I feel stuff for BF, quite strong stuff, but is it love? And is he in love with me? Neither of us has said it and I do not plan on being the first one, but I know even if he feels that it's got to be scary for him to say it also. He's uber affectionate, really lovey dovey, kisses the top of my head as we're watching tv, kisses the tip of my nose (I know Alex, gag, right? :), and I honestly think he probably does love me... or is falling in love with me... but how do you know? How can you tell if a man loves you if they haven't said it yet? How do you know if you love them? Does it feel the same as when you are a hormonal 20 something? Or does age and being hurt before and wisdom (ha, I wish) change how you experience it? Any thoughts?

What's new, pussycat?

Not much actually. Work is ok, we are still waiting to see how the merger goes, but I will apparently have a job as an HR Generalist, they are creating the position for me. A lot of what I will do is act as an employee relations specialist, so that's cool. I am waiting to hear back about seeing another plastic surgeon who does the kind of surgery I want to have, keep your fingers crossed my insurance okays it because he's not in my group. And the boyfriend thing is going well, last night I was at his place till after 11 and I had to come home because I work early and I asked "why do I have to work, why can't I be independently wealthy?" and he said "well, when I win the lottery (and I will win), we'll just travel around the world". We're a "we", isn't that cute? :)